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It was pointed out to me by several
people who read the following biographical sketch in its pre-edited
version that it was exceedingly long. In fact, I was told there was no
way an eleven page "tome" could be considered a sketch. These people
were correct. It is long, and if you don’t have the interest to forge
ahead or just think an eleven page sketch is ridiculous, skip to the
last three paragraphs (counting the poem) where I try to sum it all up.
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Biographical Sketch of Jim Michie
There I was, dressed up in a cap and gown
with no place to go, but my journey began despite my bewilderment. I had
finished high school without more that ten hours of study or homework
during its entire course. I had taken courses I was advised to take or
chose because I thought they were easy. I was young, unambitious, naïve,
and cocky. Through sloth and ignorance, I had endowed myself with, from
my perspective, a terminal degree of little value in the world I faced.
So I went out into the world still
working at the soda fountain job I had during high school, making enough
money to get by while living at home. But my close high school friends
all went on to higher education, and I began to feel the peer pressure
of not coming up to standards. Of those friends, only one had taken a
course that was open to me, since it required no money, which neither I
nor my family had or were likely to come by. Jay Burke had chosen to go
into the shipyard’s Apprentice School, where he was actually paid to go
to school, and at a much higher rate than I was bringing in.
I looked to see if I qualified to get in
and found that I didn’t. I needed to have taken more algebra, which I
had avoided in high school because I hated what I did take, even though
I loved plane geometry. It was here that I took my first conscious step
on the education path; I decided to go to night school for the necessary
algebra and make myself eligible for the Apprentice School.
The algebra was easy and the fall of 1956
found me working in the shipyard as an electrician’s helper on a
bitterly cold ship-conversion job, doing real physical labor for the
first time in my life. I didn’t like it at all, but I was waiting for my
apprentice application to perk to the top, and I could get to one of
those cushy jobs like Jay had in the shipyard’s machine shop, so I stuck
it out. In January the Apprentice School called me in and told me there
was an opening for an apprentice molder in the foundry, not any of the
more glamorous trades that I had indicated being interested in on my
application. The only thing I knew about foundry work was that it had to
do with casting hot metal into shapes. It had to be warmer. I took it.
Boy, was it warmer, and exponentially
more physical than what I had done as an electrician’s helper. It turned
out that a molder was the guy that took wooden patterns (designed to
come apart so they could be removed) and used them to make sand molds
that the liquid metal was poured into to make castings. This was done by
shoveling moist sand mixed with rosin into steel frames around the
patterns and packing it in layer-by-layer with both hand tools and large
pneumatic rams like jackhammers with a bulbous weight on the end instead
of a chisel. You shoveled, packed, and rammed from seven in the morning
to four in the afternoon with an exhausted hour’s break for lunch.
Such was my first month’s introduction to
being a molder. Then the first classroom sessions started for me, and I
had three mornings a week when I went to class rather than shoveling and
ramming sand. By this time, my rabbit, Jay Burke, had finished his first
year as a machinist apprentice and had been offered a chance to move to
an apprenticeship as a Hull Designer—inside a heated and air-conditioned
building—paradise! I decided I at least needed to do some studying and
maintenance of my grades if I wanted to join Jay in Valhalla.
At the end of my first year as an
apprentice, I was offered my choice of design disciplines should I want
to change apprenticeships, and of course, I chose Hull Design. I was
told by my instructor that this had never happened before to a molder
apprentice, and I surmised that they only offered the apprenticeship to
those they thought didn’t have the intellectual capacity for something
like being a machinist, much less a designer. A little education didn’t
seem like such a bad thing now.
While still floundering around in the
summer after high school, I met my future wife, Trudy Johnson. She was a
junior at Hampton High School, stunningly good looking, and a straight
"A" student. She had come to visit one of our neighbors in the apartment
building in which my family had lived all my life. I came in one evening
to find her and the neighbor talking to my mother and saw her several
times after that sitting outside with the neighbor when I was coming or
going. I eventually asked her for a date, and I fell in love. By the
time I had gotten into the Apprentice School, I had gotten serious
enough to ask her to marry me, and we were engaged for almost a year,
since the Apprentice School at that time did not permit its students to
be married until they were twenty-one—a long way off for me, since I was
the youngest person in my high school class (maybe with the exception of
Jeanette Hornsby).
For some reason that neither of us now
remember, probably that we were both too young and not quite sure about
such a serious commitment, we broke our engagement a month or so before
Trudy graduated from high school and a couple of months after I had
switched to a design apprenticeship. She too came from a dirt-poor
family, and although she had scholarship offers, elected to continue
working as an operator at the telephone company where she had held down
a night job while in high school.
I found myself unattached at this point,
making good money, working in a reasonable environment doing
intellectual work rather than laboring, and life was good, even though I
had a long time adjusting to life without Trudy. I had received a strict
Southern Baptist upbringing in my formative years, and I had prudishly
avoided being lured by alcohol when all my friends were experimenting
with it in high school. I found it during the year following graduation,
and with the enthusiasm of youth, became a party animal. This really got
serious when I was asked into the Pi Sigma Phi fraternity—the only one
at the Apprentice School. Jay joined up right after me and we spent some
of our not very hard-earned money on sports cars. I had a white 1954
corvette with a red and green plaid top, Jay had a white Triumph (a
souped-up TR-2 he stumbled on—a consistent element of his life as you
can read in his bio), and we were joined by another hull design
apprentice, Joe Wise (NNHS ’54), who had a red Austin Healy. Needless to
say, we cut fine figures in our own immaturely prioritized minds.
During my first year at the
Apprentice School, I bulked-up from my 150 pound high school graduating
weight to 210 pounds of very solid muscle—try shoveling sand and leaning
on a pneumatic air-hammer all day—and was talked into entering my first
team sport (I was always too small in high school) by my apprentice
friends. For a couple of years on the track team, I threw the discus and
the javelin and even tried my hand at the high hurdles, much to the
chagrin of my abused knees and shins, but I wasn’t really that good at
it.
I did find what turned out to be a
life-long sporting interest during my time as an apprentice, canoeing
and kayaking, which I successfully combined with fishing when not
hell-bent on self destruction in some icy-cold (sometimes you had to
break the ice to get downstream), swollen river—my most harrowing
experiences being with Jay Burke, of course. Jay and I both picked up
this avocation from our Hull Design Apprentice Instructor, O.K. Goodwin,
who founded the largest canoe club in Virginia and has remained a
life-long friend for us both. The canoe club’s newsletter (written by
OK) and the Apprentice School newspaper (sponsored by OK) served as my
first publisher, primarily poems on the themes of canoeing,
conservation, and the environment.
About two years after our breakup, I was
standing on the corner in front of Nachman’s department store with a can
in my hands badgering passersby to contribute to the March of Dimes,
when I encountered Trudy for the first time since we had split. Our
subsequent conversation eventually led to a date, which led ultimately
to the consummation of our originally intended marriage about a year
later. I had passed the twenty-one year old requirement.
I got married and Jay got a scholarship
to The University of Michigan, while Joe got a scholarship to VPI (now
known as Virginia Tech). I, on the other hand, after achieving my goal
of getting into a warm (or cool) environment, had gone back to
underachieving with my never-learned study habits. This meant there was
no chance of me getting a scholarship like Jay, so I decided I would
follow along on my own, and Trudy and I started saving our money. I took
the SATs and aced them, which was the only thing that got me into VPI. I
certainly had no scholastic record to ride in on. Unfortunately, those
same SAT scores got me placed immediately into the advanced math and
English courses. The English was a breeze because I found myself
overwhelmed and absorbed by the wonders of literature, but the math was
hard even with the advanced courses I had gotten at the Apprentice
School, and I still hadn’t come to see that math was the key to
everything. I got through the first year as an engineering major with
all the math required to graduate, but with the knowledge I didn’t want
to become an engineer.
I returned to Newport News, and since I
was an Apprentice School graduate, the shipyard immediately gave me a
job as a designer. After years of scraping pennies, my first few weekly
paychecks seemed like a fortune, even though we immediately started to
pay off our government loans (if you remember hard, debt was anathema in
those days). Life was good and Trudy and I agreed that she would forgo
going back to work. Two young kids were more than enough for her to
handle. I found time to sculpt, write, canoe, and fish as well as work
and help Trudy (just a little) raise the family.
I was successful as a designer, putting
my ability to visualize in three dimensions to work. I won a shipyard
sponsored contest for innovative design and was awarded a thousand
dollars (a lot of money in those days) for another design innovation. I
was happy doing the creative design work I was assigned, primarily on
aircraft carrier catapult systems,
Somehow (don’t forget I was
still young and naïve), Trudy managed to get pregnant before it was time
to go to college, but even so, we decided we would buy and live in a
trailer in a convenient park just off campus. It was the cheapest mode
we could find, and we had been preceded by Joe Wise, who had made the
same choice. Believe me, a trailer with a colicy kid is no place for a
guy struggling with advanced courses he had no business taking. It was a
nightmare, but we made it through the first year, and I was able to go
back to the shipyard for summer employment, since as an engineering
student, I had been given a leave of absence to pursue college.
Not only did I find literature, but in my
second year I found philosophy as well. I changed my major to English,
which they offered a degree in, but also pursued the credits for
doubling in Philosophy, which they didn’t offer at the time but had
assured me would be available by the time I graduated. It was at this
time that I found out what a psychological mess I was. To change majors
required a visit to the school counselors and a review of the tests I
had taken (particularly the Minnesota Multi-Phasic) during orientation
week, before starting real academic work, to see if I was "suited" to
another kind of career. I was informed that all my tests were
"inconclusive," which on inquiry turned out to mean that my answers were
so varied (read "unfocused") that the test could make no conclusions
about my personality. Jay Burke later told me that this conclusion
didn’t surprise him a bit.
We sold our trailer during my second year
and moved into a new set of low-cost apartments on the next hill over,
but not that low-cost. Things were tight, and the money we had saved was
fast disappearing. Add to that the fact that I had no summer job with my
switch to English as a major, and we started looking for money and a way
to finish up as soon as possible. Our families couldn’t help us out and
in those days there wasn’t much available from government loans. We got
what we could and I continued to take 20 to 22 hours each quarter, which
was all I could talk my counselor into allowing, and went to summer
school as well.
During my first year I made friends with
several of my young professors, many of whom were no older than I. One
of these professors was also in charge of the school’s drama group, The
Maroon Mask. I had small parts in several plays, but found the technical
side more interesting and ended up doing sets, lighting, and technical
direction. I also took a couple of sculpture courses and thus started my
continuing efforts as a sculptor.
When I started my third year, I got the
idea that an up and coming university like VPI needed to have a literary
magazine. It would also help to get more of my poems published, so I
went to the Dean of the English school and up a few more notches until I
had the money needed to give it a try, which I did. It is still going
today as Maelstrom, a name suggested by Trudy.
When we had finally run out
of money and I had to leave college to support my family—now about to
grow to two with a daughter being added to the son—I was firmly locked
into the goal of returning as soon as I had the money and pursuing a
master’s degree that would allow me to teach either literature or
philosophy at the college level. My college years had been the turning
point, I had been sucked down into the maelstrom of intellectual
curiosity, never to come up for air again. But it was an ambitious goal
(finally), and I still had two quarters to go at my 20 to 22 hour pace
to complete my undergraduate degree. I was still naïve.
and suddenly I had a
definable career, at least for a couple of years. Then the Chief Naval
Architect, who I worked for about ten levels down the food chain, was
appointed by the shipyard’s president to head a very important industry
competition project to design a new class of navy ship (Landingship-Helicopter
Assault). He was looking for someone who understood engineering but
could write, and I got tapped to be a technical editor.
It was a "you can’t say no"
important project for the company, and I went with trepidations. It was
a large project, over a hundred engineers, designers, and support staff
that were moved physically out of the shipyard to a building in the
Hidenwood section of Newport News—an offsite facility was a new animal
at that time for the shipyard. There were also about twenty consultants
that had been hired from the aerospace industry, mostly out of
California, that were to provide guidance on how to spin the new design
into the systems engineering world, which was new to the Navy but old
hat for aerospace.
I can’t recall how I ever
found the time, but during this project, where it was not unusual to
work an ungodly amount of overtime, I persuaded one of my
brothers-in-law to join me in trying an art gallery. We found a small
place in an old strip-mall area just north of Hidenwood on Warwick
Boulevard, painted it, built moveable partitions for hanging paintings,
and found some good artists willing to place their works there on
commission. In the back, there was an area where I could sculpt (mostly
welded metal) when I was manning the gallery. This was the only art
gallery in the Newport News area at the time, and we found out why. We
barely broke even. So after seven or eight months, when the city took
the building to straighten out the boulevard a bit, we just let the idea
go. But something had been kindled deep inside me by that venture that
would flicker again and again in the following years.
The exposure to these highly skilled and
seemingly sophisticated consultants proved to be a revelation for an
unsophisticated Newport News boy. When the project was over, after about
a year and a half, I was lured by two of the consultants that had formed
their own company to pursue a similar endeavor for General Dynamics in
Quincy, Massachusetts, immediately south of Boston. I left my family for
about five months in the winter of 1968 and put my recently gained
experience as Chief Editor to work for this new company. When that job
was over, I took another with a different consulting company on a
similar project for Pratt & Whitney in West Palm Beach, Florida. This
time I brought the family down with me where we stayed on Singer Island
in a motel having single family apartments on the dune looking out over
the ocean. We were there about two months in the late spring-early
summer, and it seemed almost mystical to be in such close and regular
rapport with the beauty and power of nature. After that, Singer Island
was our vacation destination every summer while the kids were growing
up.
After this less than one year stint as a
"worldly" consultant, I returned to the shipyard to work for a
fast-rising manager, Joe Deal, whom I had befriended on the LHA project
where he was the Technical Director. He was in charge of a group of
engineers and designers called Advanced Systems Design, where I worked
on fascinating design projects I can’t talk about even today. He served
as my mentor then and for many years following, teaching me what
mentoring was all about (the commitment of friendship among other
things), which I in turn tried to apply to others as my career moved
into its later years. His recent death was the only real friendship I
have lost to death. It was difficult.
Advanced Systems Design changed into yet
another special project where the shipyard was again in a design
competition, but for the Maritime Administration. On this effort I got
my first taste of project management, and I didn’t particularly like it,
so I was happy when the project was successfully completed and the cream
of the project staff became the core of a new Market Development
Division. Here I was able to spend a couple of years doing market
analysis and advanced systems design that were much more to my taste
than managing. I discovered the power of computers as an analytical tool
during this period and had great fun with a world dynamics model and
transportation systems analysis. The thirst for intellectual challenge
that had consumed me in college was slaked every day by the creative
challenge of the work. I ended up getting a couple of patents and a
couple of copyrights during this period and couldn’t believe someone was
paying me to do this.
During this period at the shipyard I
continued to sculpt, canoe, and fish whenever possible. Somehow, I found
time to design my own kayak from scratch, build the mold, and make my
own fiber glass kayak. It worked! And when I wasn’t using it, Jay was.
When I had been in Massachusetts, I had
bought a junker Volkswagen to get around. Back in Newport News, I was
getting out of the car in a mall parking lot one day and the door
wouldn’t close. I looked closely to determine the problem and found that
the upper right corner of the driver-side door seemed to be misaligned
with the doorframe by about an inch. I kept fiddling with it until
looking at the underside of car revealed that the frame and pan were so
rusty that the car had actually sagged when I opened the door. This was
my "going to work" car and we had gotten used to having two cars, so I
converted it to a bright orange beach buggy, which I drove for several
years.
My last effort at Newport News was the
coordination of the design for the new North Yard expansion, and to do
this I got to pick four other people I wanted from the company to help
me. I did so, and we guided both the design of the new Liquified Natural
Gas and Ultra-Large Crude Carriers that were to be built by the yard and
the layout and basic design of the shipyard itself. After about a year,
when this project was coming to a close, we were all lamenting having to
go back to our former jobs after such a stimulating period of being able
to work closely with people whose capabilities you really respected when
an article in a marine industry magazine came to our attention.
The article said that John
J. McMullen Associates (one of the country’s largest naval architecture
firms) had been selected to design a new shipyard for the island
government of Curacao and to manage it when it was completed. We had
just designed a shipyard!; so during lunch we wrote a letter and were
shortly hired—all five of us. We took off for New York planning to spend
three or four months there and then to move as a group, with families,
to Curacao, first managing the construction and then managing shipyard
operations. As a group, that is, except for Nan Barfield LaRue’s husband
Clyde, who got to go down to Curacao immediately and start planning for
the recruiting and training of personnel.
We worked at it for seven or
eight months, not four, but it never got beyond the design stage, since
we were caught in the middle of our efforts by a sudden world-wide
recognition that the world’s shipyards had built or were building more
tankers than the market needed. By the time the market cratered, I had
already sold two 60,000 ton tankers to a Hong Kong buyer (an
extraordinary experience), and we tried hard to get a job designing and
building a new facility for Bahrain. The effort included a dinner at
McMullen’s home for the Sheik of Bahrain, the ambassador to the U.S.
from Saudi Arabia, and the ambassador to the United Nations from Saudi
Arabia. Since that night surrounded by dozens of Monet, Pissarro, and
Picasso paintings (McMullen was a collector immediately following WWII
when they were relatively cheap, he later informed me) I have often
wondered if my small town awe at being in such exalted company had
adversely influenced the effort, because we didn’t get the job.
McMullen then transformed us
into a broad-spectrum shipyard consulting group and our primary effort
during that time was about a year’s worth of consulting for three Great
Lakes shipyards owned by George Steinbrenner. I remember at least twice
in the middle of meetings with George where he received phone calls and
traded key Yankees. He was everything and more you ever read about him,
but we got along fine.
We also did about a month’s
consulting job at a port in Iran when the Shah was still in power. The
port was remote, up near the Iraq border, and we were driven each day
from civilization to the port (about an hour and a half each way) and
back. One of our key contacts was a member of the Iranian Senate (also
the brother of the head of the Iranian Navy—nepotism being the same
everywhere), with whom we had dined at his home. He disappeared forever
about a month after we finished the job. I haven’t wanted a foreign
assignment since.
I was glad to get home,
which by that time was in Pascagoula, Mississippi, where the new VP that
we reported to had his home and McMullen had a consulting job with the
U.S. government defending against a claim filed by Ingalls Shipbuilding.
This VP, by the way, was also one of the two California consultants that
I had gone to work with at General Dynamics in Massachusetts (it’s a
small world). After moving my family and buying a house on a bayou that
I loved, the immediate work lasted only a year and some of our original
group from NNS&DDCo split up, one going back to New York, two going back
to Newport News, and Clyde and I going to a McMullen office in Maryland.
We stayed there for a year
and did some interesting things, but we weren’t happy. We were tired of
being jerked around, so we thought we might try to do something on our
own. I wanted to try being a sculptor for a living, even though I was
now in my late thirties, which was a little late for a career change as
drastic as that, and Clyde, strangely enough, was willing to try and
market my sculpture and designs to interior decorators and work on the
technical problems of developing a product line. I bought a house in
Gloucester Point and moved back to the general Newport News area. I had
fun, Clyde got frustrated with the sales scene, and we didn’t make
enough money to keep it going but for a year. Seems we had made the
classic mistake for new businesses by being overconfident about how
quick we could start a meaningful cash flow.
About the time it was becoming apparent
we wouldn’t make a success out of our venture, I got a call from the
other consultant I had gone to Massachusetts with (it’s a very small
world). He was now Director of Marketing for Ingalls Shipbuilding
(having taken over the job when Joe Wise left Ingalls—smaller and
smaller) and wanted to hire me to manage their research and development,
a group of about twenty-five designers and engineers that were
developing new ship designs being peddled to the Navy. He knew first
hand I had a ship design and engineering background and he knew I had
spent a couple of years in the marketing group at NNS&DDCo. I needed a
job, it was in Pascagoula, Mississippi, which both Trudy and I had
liked, and it was working for someone I liked and respected. How bad
could it be? I took the job and went to Mississippi by myself since it
was in the fall and we didn’t want to interrupt the school semester for
the kids. After I had been there only a couple of months, things started
to unravel for my friend and he started making sounds that he might
leave and go back to his boyhood home in the mountains of Colorado and
contemplate his navel for a while.
There I was in a company where I had no
real connections for survival other than my friend and a few new
acquaintances I had made since being hired. If he left, my survival in
the corporate jungle was by no means certain, and I hadn’t been there
long enough to be considered to move up into his job. It was not a
situation that I wanted to move my family into again. I knew that the
company was just starting up a new shipbuilding project for the Navy’s
Aegis Class cruisers, and I had heard they were going to put a small
support group in the Washington area. While it would be hard to find a
job in the Pascagoula, Mississippi area should I need one, it would be
easy to find one in the Washington area if things turned sour. So I
talked my way into being in charge of this future group of designers,
engineers, and support staff and stayed in Mississippi, leaving the kids
as they were for the whole school year. In the summer we all moved to
Fairfax, Virginia.
It was a Director level job at a big
company, so the compensation was pretty good, but after the novelty of
the first year it began to get boring. Trudy on the other hand was fully
engaged. She had started picking up college credits at Christopher
Newport College during our Newport News periods when the kids got large
enough for her to have the time. In Fairfax, she was close to George
Mason University and she took advantage of it to finish her degree in
Information Sciences. On the other hand, I was still two quarters short
of a college degree.
My drive to and from Crystal
City every day was a nightmare, I was traveling for three or four days
every month back to Mississippi, and managing the idiosyncrasies of my
staff was a pain in the butt. After three years, I had had enough.
Fortunately, my pique corresponded perfectly with the needs of my old
NNS&DDCo mentor, Joe Deal, who was now the president of a small shipyard
and ocean engineering firm (Tracor Marine) in Fort Lauderdale, Florida.
He needed some help running a three-year contract with the Navy to
provide diving, salvage, and oil-spill cleanup services (using the
Navy-owned, contractor-maintained equipment) in nearly all the waters of
the globe except the Pacific Ocean as well as with other shipyard
projects. I was interested, but didn’t want to live in Fort Lauderdale.
He accommodated me by setting up the project in the Norfolk area which
was close to the main Navy equipment depot in Williamsburg, with the
thought we might be able to find some other Navy or commercial ship
business in the Tidewater region.
The project went great guns
for its three years, and I had the opportunity to get fully immersed in
the new business rage, personal computers, but we were not the low
bidder for the next three year stint, and I failed to work any miracles
of securing a meaningful volume of other work in the area. My short but
different and very challenging job with Tracor had come to an end. But
during this period I found that I could utilize the personal computer to
pursue my still gnawing hunger for creative indulgences in writing and
graphic arts. I also got hooked by the lure of being able to publish my
own work.
I looked around and found
that one of the people I had worked with on the now infamous LHA Project
at NNS&DDCo had started his own consulting company to prepare and defend
contract claims for shipyards. This required detailed knowledge of
shipyard management and operations, the ability to analyze large amounts
of data and draw meaningful conclusions, and the ability to put those
conclusions in writing that could be understood by the non-technical
legal profession. I became a consultant again.
My recently rediscovered
computer skills, specifically my new knowledge of personal computers,
allowed me to take masses of computerized data from shipyard records and
reduce them to something meaningful. I liked the creative challenge of
the work and loved being able to work again with capable professionals
in an atmosphere where little or no management was required. It also
paid extremely well and most of the work was in the Tidewater area.
During the approximately two
year period I worked with this consulting group, we were joined by the
VP that I had reported to while working at Ingalls Shipbuilding
(small-world networking again). He was just into retirement age and was
still in tight with the Litton corporate office, who owned Ingalls. A
call from the then Litton president requested him to take on the job of
putting together a claim for their Canadian subsidiary, Litton Systems,
Canada against the Canadian government. He went to Canada for a couple
of weeks to check things out and returned with the knowledge that he
would need a great deal of help, so he came to me and a few other
consultants from our group to see if we would join him when the job we
were currently working was finished.
Four of us agreed to join
him, and we formed our own company to do it, Contralytics Corporation,
in 1989. So I was off again, out of the country again, and traveling
home every two weeks for a three day weekend. It was a massive claim
(more than $250 million), the first the Canadian government had ever
had, and it took us a year and a half. The nature of the claim was the
most complicated we had ever seen or heard of, but we were lucky. The
legal team that Litton had engaged was the best we had ever worked with,
and while they knew little or nothing about government claims, they were
incredibly hard working, intelligent, and a delight to work with. In
fact, the young, lead Canadian attorney, Allan Rock, went on to become
the Attorney General and the Minister of Labor for Canada and is
generally considered a shoo-in to eventually become Prime Minister.
Heady company again for a Newport News boy who still hadn’t managed to
get his college degree.
The corporation changed
principals over time to include Clyde LaRue and Joe Wise, and we did
work for shipyards and ship owners on all three Coasts until 2001, when
we finally closed shop. Two of us were ready to retire and Joe had
developed his own new business providing import/export expertise,
primarily to Russia. To be precise, it wasn’t so much that I wanted to
retire, certainly not in the classic sense of the concept, but that I
wanted to have more time to pursue whims of creativity when they struck
me.
And indeed, things didn’t
stop there. After a year or more of really getting to like the time my
retirement afforded me to enjoy the beach house we had bought on
Hatteras Island and the luxury of writing and sculpting as much as I
could steal time for, I got a call from Joe Wise. He had been called by
a medium-sized shipyard in Mobile, Alabama (a former Contralytics
client) while he was taking a short vacation on the Gulf Coast. He gave
them a few days of consulting, since he was close enough to drive there
each day, but he was being pressed by one of his Russian projects. I
reluctantly agreed to step in for him for a week or so, and it turned
into an intensive five month effort requiring the help of the other two
former Contralytics owners. And before it was over, I also got dragged
into another one of the shipyard’s disputes requiring expert testimony
in a Texas arbitration.
Since that time, there have
been no other consulting jobs to interrupt my communes with nature or
spotty bursts of creativity, but the network that floated me during my
career (if you can call such a diffuse life’s work by such a term) is
still intact except for a few deaths. The phone could ring tomorrow or
an e-mail could pop up in my In-Box that would prove irresistible.
I have now completed several
short stories, an Alaskan fishing trip journal (with photos and
graphics), a philosophical essay, a very small book of poetry (with
graphics), and a novel. I’m about halfway through the sequel to my
novel, am working on three more philosophical essays, cleaning up some
OBX inspired graphics designs I plan to have printed on T-shirts this
winter, putting a few hours into my 50th high school class reunion
planning, and am still managing to get in some fishing. I’m trying to
find time to continue developing the paper sculpting technique I created
during my Contralytics years and to do (ugh) maintenance work on my two
houses. Most importantly, I am trying to spend as much time with my
friends as I can. Either they or I won’t be around forever.
So how do I end such a
rambling exposé of a directionless life? With not one but three
summations, of course.
~~~~~~
I exited high school as an
educational and psychological mess. The NNS&DDCo Apprentice School
taught me how to work and kindled a smoldering love of creativity.
College built an inferno of desire for ceaseless intellectual
stimulation and provided a basic knowledge of the fuels needed to
sustain that flame. To support my commitments to family, I needed to find
financially rewarding work but was driven to do that within my
necessity for intellectual challenge. I held on to old friends and made
many new ones along the way. I managed to find time for the purely
creative endeavors that have enriched my life beyond measure. I have
traveled this road not alone, but with a wife that has put up with all
this seemingly aimless wandering for forty-five years—a wife that was
quietly, but steadyingly, always my intellectual superior (thank you,
God, if you’re there). Even now I continue to try her seemingly infinite
patience as I continue with my creative obsessions.
~~~~~~
Like a fledgling
Emerging from the cozy nest
of childhood
Tumbling from the lofty
branch of innocent security
Toward the ground-solid
reality of the world’s indifference
I have struggled to fly
First with just my wings
Learning cruelly they were
not enough
Seeking knowledge to lighten
the load of meaninglessness
And finding I could almost
float
When pumped-up by the
pressure of creative challenge
Freeing my wings for
steering rather than just staying alive
Pumping those wings
furiously
When creative vacuum
threatened to deflate me
Preventing me from following
the path that knowledge has given me
Where intellectual curiosity
lights my feet
And the journey continues as
long as I can "rage"
~~~~~~
Or finally, to put it most succinctly, as
my father did whenever given half a chance, "the boy just can’t hold
down a job."
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